Also, let me just say for the first time that I am somewhat proud of myself. I look at a lot of people in my age group and situation who are a hot mess. I'm glad that I turned out to be strong and independent. It isn't necessary for me rely on anyone, so when I do it creates a trusting and sincere relationship. Which brings me to point B, my relationship with James. We go through things and are in no way perfect, but it's fine because we made our relationship long term; something most girls my age are not even interested in. It is a drama-less, meaningful relationship that I learn things out of. Actually, I can say the same with every single one of my friendships. I started to drop off "barely friends" and gossip/flirt buddies when I started to get my shit together, age 16. And now i've reached the point where I can meet new people and connect with them, no small talk, and I no longer have to alter who I am to cater to this new friend. By the way I meet new people by INTRODUCING MYSELF TO THEM, IN PERSON, AND LATER MAYBE ADDING THEM ON THE INTERNET. Because the being in the same room with a person indicates right off the bat that you have simularities. And my close friends are actually close, we talk and relate and grow together.
And then there's the job thing. I realized when I moved out that I needed money. And I found a job. Simple as that. As long as the Earth isnt a total shit wasteland there will be people hiring. It's not the most glamourous job on earth, but what 18 year old girl (besides Lori, ahaha) is livin the dream right now? Most of us are in food service and retail. And I don't plan on being in retail ever again for the rest of my life. I don't want to be like the 40 year old women at my job working full time there and at a 2nd place. I love being educated and how far it's already gotten me. People take you seriously across the board when you are intelligent. It stands out more than age, sex, appearance, etc. It saves your ass in tons of situations, when you've reached a certain mark you become at least average at everything, making you compatible and in demand. Learning one trade is so 1800's. Education is the one thing you can rely on your entire life. I have plans that are great and increasingly obtainable, and it's exciting when you get on the other side of another obstacle in the way of your goal. You know what I mean? I'm not struggling now, and I never will be. Not because of the wealth of my parents mind you; financially speaking, I am an orphan.. But because I realized at a very young age that no one will always be around to cover your ass and give out freebies. I'm proud that I've gone so far and so fast in what? 4 months. The threat of poverty( and the realization that living like a punx is ridiculous and only cool for pictures) scares you into making a life for yourself.
And not to rub it in, but even my tattoos are great. Kekeke.
