free of suggestion

It doesn't matter how much fun I have every day, what I accomplish, who I meet and what I do with the people I know.. when I get home reality sinks in and I end up feeling helpless. I'm NOT being dramatic or looking for pity, I just want a solution/ life to be fair just this once. Plus, it's not like I can eat or sleep to get out of it either. Eating and sleeping is a luxury that I only enjoy certain days of the week. Me and my family are in the biggest rut and I don't see it getting any better any time soon. It's disheartening and does more damage than any man will ever do. So please don't think I'm sad about something stupid like that.